So, I’m nearing the end of my stint as a conscriptee, with about ten working days left. (Ten? Twenty? Same order of magnitude, whatever.)
I think my number-one takeaway from the whole experience is that my nature to procrastinate hasn’t really improved much at all. Maybe just a bit, though.
I’m desperately trying to clear all the shit I have accumulated from twenty-odd months of laziness, and hopefully I don’t have to pass this stuff on to the poor new guy and let him be swamped with work from the get-go.
Yet somehow I got awarded that “outstanding serviceman” thing. (Which I’ve referred to in an earlier post.) I tried to turn it down, but you know, things don’t always turn out the way we want them to. On the other hand, I didn’t try to the extent of pointing out that 90% of the recommendation write-up was either misleadingly exaggerated or outright fabricated. To date, I still haven’t fully read my own write-up; while I’ve proofread the write-ups for previous award recipients, I decided to let someone else go through this one. If I had done it myself, I probably would’ve deleted the 90%. My superiors/bosses were kinda “desperate” to give me this award before I left service, but whatever.
I’m not sure there’s much more I could write that I haven’t already. There’s the usual I-lost-faith-in-Singaporeans schtick but I’m sure you’re sick of that. Incidentally, I was watching some old Ch 8 drama on TV earlier (killing time etc.), and it kind of just struck me how, even if the characters are exaggerated (it’s television), the archetypes are actually present in society, and I’ve encountered them through all the hundreds of people I have to work with/for.
I really would like to thank my parents for at least making me not a completely inconsiderate jerk. (Even if they’ve screwed up all other parts of my personality.) It amazes me how some people are entirely incapable of looking at the big picture and somehow get stuck in some Nash equilibrium of selfishness.