Ammonia

TAKE YOUR SHITTY ARGUMENTS ELSEWHERE I DON’T WANT TO LISTEN TO YOU‒ well scratch that there are some people I have to want to listen to even if they infuriate me much.

I’d like to point out a certain flaw about the word “want” as used in common speech. At the very basic level you have the “I want to do this because it makes me happy” kind of “want”. That’s a “want” I believe everybody can consider a real “want”. The ambiguity comes in at somewhat more complex types of “want”s, like a “doing this lets me not suffer” kind of “want”. It’s debatable whether that counts as a “need” or a “want”. And then you have a “doing this makes me suffer now but is better in the long run” kind of “want”. Is that a “want”? A “need”?

And then, by necessity any action that has already been done was “wanted”, even if they’re now undesirable (with new information, or simply bipolarity). If it weren’t wanted, that means there wasn’t a “want” to do the action, ergo the action would not have been done.

You have varying levels of “want”. There’s a “I want this, but only if I don’t have to pay for it”, and then there’s an attachment to the amount to pay (“I want this, only if I have to pay less than “), and the next step up is “I want this and I’ll use whatever I can to get it”. Note that what’s being paid might not necessarily be money, but other things human subjects attach value to (those with sentimental value, for example). And while the latter two “want”s are quite clearly true “want”s in the layman (read: inexact) definition of “want”, they’d fall under the third type of “want” in the second paragraph. Which is highly debatable.

Anyway back to main topic which is ranting about my life and why I hate everything (except you, I love you guys (maximum homo if you’re male, maximum hetero if you’re female)).

Ever since I learnt of the concept of not consuming dinner at the dining table, I’ve had a habit of taking my bowl to wherever else to consume the stuff inside the bowl (which I hesitate to call food at times). Or well, not so much a habit as something I had the capability of doing and actually did. The “adults” I live with (I realise I can’t use that to refer to everybody else anymore because I’m legal now, but screw that) seem to have a pretty gigantic issue with that though, especially recently. Well yes of course I can’t tell them I’m busy putting subtitles on Japanese cartoons (illegally, even) and expect them to be fine with it, but it’s not like I take my bowl off to my room every day.

Heck, I don’t think I’ve even been doing that the past few days before today.